Authentic
While I started this modeling thing mostly on a whim, I have to admit that it had been something I had considered for quite some time. But I was unsure of what I wanted to do with it, or even why to be honest. Something about it just called to me, even if that's a silly way to put it.
A few years back, while I was still a teenager, I started following a pornstar online. She was one of the first pornstars I really took an interest in. She doesn't do it anymore, so I'll leave her name out just to avoid any issues, but she did something I found interesting. Obviously she had the videos of her doing incredibly sexy and hot stuff, that was what attracted me in the first place, but she also had other videos. Every once in a while, she would just have a video where she talked about her life or things going on or the like. That's what kept me coming back. This was a random person I occasionally masturbated to on the internet, but I felt like she was a connection to the outside world. Seeing glimpses into her life made me realize she was a person like any other, and doing porn was just one facet of her personality and life.
I'm very early in my transition. I came to the realization I was trans only a couple of years ago. I'm only out to a few close friends in real life and my partners. I've only started down the road of becoming the person I want to be. But here, with you across the internet, I can be and act however I want. It's liberating in a way. I don't have to pretend and can just reveal the parts of myself that even when I have transitioned, I wouldn't be able to show in polite company, and while I very much like showing off how much of a slut I am, I don't want to be just another piece of ass on the internet. I want to do something different.
I'll probably make posts like this from time to time. I don't have any strict schedule at the moment for this stuff, but I'll try to add content frequently. If you, like me, enjoy seeing glimpses into the lives of strangers and feeling a little closer to them, hopefully you'll enjoy my occasional rants! If you don't, hopefully you can just ignore the posts and get to the masturbating! If you actively are annoyed by this type of waxing philosophical, maybe you can at least imagine hate fucking me?
Talk to you later,
Ashley